Wow time flies

I looked down at the date the today and I noticed that it's Oct 15th. A year ago today I was probably freaking out because we were in the last 30 days before the wedding. I can't believe it's been almost a year since we got married. I mean if feels like only yesterday that we got married and went on our honeymoon.

This year we've decided to go to Orlando. We're going to Universal for 4 days. I'm really excited about it. We booked rooms at Loews Royal Pacific Resort. It's like we're going to some south Pacific island. Ahhhhhhhhh.....I feel relaxed just typing this now. The perks are that we can use our room keys to bypass lines for the rides.

That is going to be our anniversary present to each other.

No baby on board.

So we found out that a couple that Daniel was the DJ for are pregnant. I'm really happy for them. I really am.

But I'm sad on a personal level. We've been married for almost a year and we aren't pregnant. I know people who weren't trying that got pregnant. I know people that were trying that got pregnant. Yet here I sit. I can honestly say I've sat crying looking at some friends kids. It's just so hard.

Thoughts bounce around in my head. Why not me? Am I being punished for something? Is there something wrong with me?

I don't know I just needed to say that.

So what do you do now?

That question is one of the most difficult questions that I get now whenever I run into old friends or co-workers.

What do I tell them? The truth? A lie?

Normally I reply "Nothing." with a follow up of "I'm a housewife." Truth be told I LOVE the role of being the housewife. I really do get a high level of happiness with taking care of the house, cleaning, cooking, decorating, ironing and entertaining. I watch Martha Stewart( and read her magazine and follow her on Twitter) and Rachael Ray. I spend time looking at recipes. I read Retro Housewife. I'm flourishing in the role.

The problem comes from the person asking the question. Normally they make a silent "oh" or comment about "Oh I want your life" which implies I sit at home eating bon bons while watching Springer. Sometimes people comment "Slacker" with a laugh.

I always end up feeling bad. When did becoming a housewife mean not doing anything with your life? Why do people think that just because I don't have a job outside of the home that I don't work? When did homemaker become a four letter word?

I've been lucky that Daniel earns enough to allow me to stay home and not work. We live modestly and make smart money decisions. I'm not a big shopper, I still have money on gifts cards that I got for Christmas. All in all this works for us.

I just wish people would stop thinking that somehow I've gone back in time to the 50's and that women who stay home don't do anything. We work very hard everyday just like our sisters who go to the office, we just don't have the paycheck to show for it.


According to Salary.com my yearly paycheck would be: $31,943

It's Autumn

This is my second favorite time of the year(winter being top dog). I love it because it starts to get cooler out, the leaves start to change and all the bugs start to die off. I've noticed it's almost Love Bug season. I thought I saw one fly into the house the other day. Joy.

I've been happy because I found my camera battery charger. I've been dying without it. I took some photo's of behind the house at night and of the birds in the lake. (See below.)

I guess that's what I'm more or less going to be blogging about. I don't really do much of anything else. Since I don't have a car I can't go anywhere during the week. I'm alone most of the time. Every now and then my or Daniel's parents come over to visit. I was telling Daniel that I go for about 11 hours a day without talking to another soul. Since I rarely watch tv during the day I also go 11 hours without hearing another persons voice. It gets lonely at times. I have Cincy our dog to keep me company. Sometimes she goes over to my parents house for a visit. That's where she is now.

Most of my week is spent cleaning the house, washing clothes or being online. I'm a facebook addict. I'll admit that I stalk most everyone. It's interesting to see what other people are doing. I'll read most every one's blogs even if I don't comment. I spend a good amount of online time looking at crafts, home decor and recipes. Right now I'm getting idea's for Halloween. I'm hoping I get trick or treaters this year after not getting a single one last year. I'm gonna try to make the walk way to the house spooky. It gives me pleasure to decorate for the holidays.

I guess that's it for now. See ya next week.

Night time view

Bird in the lake.

The week as me

So I'm a day late on my blog update. Nothing really interesting has really happened this week.

For a couple of days I really thought I was pregnant. I was like super tired, sick in the mornings and food tasted bad to me. Daniel and I really thought I was but I'm not. Kinda disappointed.

I've been making great strides in my cooking. My mother did all of our families cooking when I lived at home so until I got married my cooking was just whatever I could microwave. I kinda just make it up as I go along. Jennifer Durbin turned me on to the Kraft website so I just look around there.

I went to the Library and checked out Waiter Rant. That was a really good book. I read it all in one day. It's this guys life story as a waiter. It kinda just draws you in.

We had a community yard sale and we made about $35 from selling stuff that we had set aside from the move. We hope that the community does them more often.

In my final note of the blog, we found the BEST food place around the corner from us. It's called Thai Basil. I've fallen in love with them. The food is good and they give you so much for the price. Daniel and I got lettuce wraps and white rice. We both shared it, ate until we were stuffed AND I have some left over for lunch today. The people are really nice and friendly.

I guess that's it. Exciting isn't it.